you know how things go...

... and you know that things aren't always great. for me, lately, they've been pretty rotten.

because of the accident a few years ago i've had to wear a denture. it broke like, three sunday's ago. let me tell you, that thing was expensive. and we're *dirt* poor right now so needless to say i was devastated.

the next day, i woke up to a funny tightness in my chest. br had been sick all weekend, coughing and what no, and i was like... if i get sick i'm going to maul you. just my luck, i came down with the worst cold i've had in a long time. i was completely out of commission, coughing like a freakin lunatic. didn't leave the house. no school. no gym. no food even. the only upside to that week was i lost 5 pounds (remember that ladies - if ever you need to lose serious weight in a short time, rub up on some snotty kids or lick the subway hand rails. you'll see results in no time flat)

anyway... i had to get a new denture, which meant finding a new dentist and that was painful. although i'm not afraid of going to the dentist, i find i'm rather traumatized by the experience. i can be as happy as a pig in mud but after the dentist, i am no good.

i had to wait a week for the new piece. and during that time, i had to go to class and talk and you know... horrible things like that where people would be seeing me at my worst. and they did. and i lisped my way through french.

i've also been just plain low lately. br and i have been back and forth, off and on... it's been terrible. i haven't had the energy to go to the gym, eat properly, or even care. i've lost the will to pay attention to my school work. really? i just want to be left alone. right now, instead of working on my 2000 word essay about on don delillo's white noise and murray siskind's point of view in relation to the narrative, i'm blogging. procrastination, thou art thine enemy.
what's worse? in about an hour i have to do an interview for my news reporting class and i just don't feel like it. like i said, don't care anymore. but it's due tomorrow and i'll be damned if i'll hand that in late. the english teacher is more lenient than the news reporting teacher. because she's trying to teach us what real life is like. you know the kind. you've all encountered them.

the good news is, i got my appliance today. i hate it, really. it's uncomfortable and weird, nothing like the other one. although the colouring is much better. but that's neither here nor there.

i'm just really negative lately and i thought i'd share.

they did such a good job, you can't even tell...