i'm looking for someone...

...but i can't find him.
he's not lost, just in hiding. he probably knows that i'm looking too, which is why he's camouflaged himself with his surroundings.
i'll find him though... and let him know what i've been thinking. and what everyone else has been thinking. he deserves to know. unless he contracted some sort of rare cancer and has died already. probably not.
i'd like to think he has, only recently contracted bird flu and is about to die and whatever i have to say is the last thing that he hears on his death bed and he takes it to his grave.
but i don't want to see him. i just want to find him. and tell him how much i hate him.
because when you hate someone so much, you have to tell them, or else they'll never know what's wrong. how can they fix the problem if they don't know there is one?
you can't fix this though.
but i will try