cozying up to the end

so... it's so easy to get so comfortable with what you think your future is, but what about when your future doesn't work out the way you've planned... do you cozy up to that...?

anyway. it's like, it's a cold, rainy day/night somewhere in the world and you got your handmade, crocheted afghan that looks like a ten year old made it cuz they had too, pulled up close around your chin and a) a good book b) a good movie watching you as you doze off, a steaming mug of a) hot chocolate b) tea getting colder next to you...

and you're alone. what do you dream about? how sad it is that you're spending another night/day by yourself or what? i dream about scary things. i dream that everything i have and care about will be gone... then i wake up in a cold sweat and fumble around behind me, knowing that br isn't there but should be...