sufficiently like a loser...

so now that i've sat through the entire process of the raffle draw, watching other people get these prizes, i feel sufficiently enough like a loser...

but i guess what you don't put in you don't get out right? and i've never been lucky with gambling and stuff so i never expected to win although you always have in the back of your mind that hope that *just* maybe they'll grab your name and unwrap it, revealing that you've won some awesome amazing mystery prize that no household can be without...

one lady won two surround sound systems. how's that for luck? this other chick won two things before winning the plasma t.v.

mind you... what am i going to do with most of that stuff other than sell it. a plasma? i don't have cable or a dvd player. plus, our house is the size of a... well something really small. we don't have the space... but like i said... still.

i didn't think i would mention this until, you know... give the feelings of inadequacy a little time to cool off... but since i'm here waiting for br to come and pick me up, and my cheeks are feeling a little hot from the free zinfandel (yes i'm tacky i drink zinf. usually one glass will get me going lately, sad but true. tonight it was two, on top of some ... interesting... apetisers...)

now it's time for some drunken late night shopping