i am around somewhere... i just can't find me yet

i am here.

i have not been around lately because work has piled *this* high and i don't have time to hang around and talk about how napoleon is even crazier now after the fact than he were before (yes. much better. i sleep through the night now but he insists on wedging his head under my neck.)

snb was succesful but only three other people came because the others were either a) sick or 2) dancing crazy dances somewhere in a thicket. next time will be better. we'll do it on a tuesday.

i posed in a wedding dress today for pictures for the cover of the bridal supplement we're doing at my job. i didn't like the dress. i wanted something funky. i wish i were a photographer because then my dreams and ideas would show up on paper and in ink. i think i could have done better. but that's not my job. yet. anyway. i got a couple singles that i'm dying to see. usually i hate myself in photos but i was trying to be graceful and maybe something will come of it.
as i am the classic example of girl influenced by american magazine culture, i would love to model but do not have the body for it and am hopelessly lost in an endless sea of diet books and exercise routines. if these pictures impress me, i might start to put together a portfolio. do something real about it instead of not-so-proactively sitting on my ass and watching other people enjoy their lives.

so yes. now i'm going to eat. because i'm hungry and that's what i do when i'm hungry. hopefully mac and cheese but we'll see what br got from his new job... yea. hopefully mac and cheese. comfort food. he's a glorified shelf stacker, may not stay there long, but at least there's mac and cheese. and chocolate.

yea.